if I decide I no longer belong here
if my thoughts don't make more sense
if my feelings are going off balance
if I decide I can't be happy no more
if all the love inside of my heart becomes sore
if I notice I will never be able to win this war
if all the feeling i have for you go away
and if everything that is going wrong in my life is just for me to say
that I can't stand live like this, i just can't stay
why couldn't I just disappear?
just be blown up and dissolved in the wind
why would that ever be wrong?
if all I ever wanted was to stop breathing
under the water
just let me know who will be grieving
when I just leave.
I know it's tough to say
it's hard to permit
but I'm controlling my life
why can't i control my end?
I wonder... well, i just wonder.
